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Published On: 03/01/2009 01:14 PM
I have been thinking about starting a couple of clubs, following on from some threads I have started that are close to my heart. The first is the 'fulltime club' which is aimed at sissies who want/need to be little girls fulltime. Mainly aimed at sissies who are little girls around the age of 5-11, but also to include baby girls and toddlers too.
After staring the thread about my desire to live 24/7 as a nine year old girl, I was heartned by the response. It seems there are a number of sissies who want to live fulltime as little girls and find it difficult, as I do, to be an 'adult male'.
The other club I am thinking of starting is the 'teenie weenie' club. Having a very tiny pee pee is fundamental to who I am, it defines me in many ways and I want to share views etc with other sissies who have tiny pee pees. I have never been humiliated or have ever felt inadequate by being small down below, but that is because I am a sissy and the last thing I want is something so masculine dangling between my legs.
I don't have sex, it has never felt natural to me, so having a little shriveled nugget is more a blessing than a curse, something I can tuck away in my nappy and forget about. I love to hear from other sissies about their teenie weenies and what it means to them to be 'small' down below.
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Published On: 12/21/2008 12:01 PM
It sometimes is so hard leading this double life, putting up the pretence of what a few people deem to be normal. Fighting feelings that do not deserve to be fought because if I do not fight them, or at least subdue them, then I will be left open to the narrow minded fools.
But having Sissy Kiss makes life a lot easier and being part of the sissy community is so very important. The amount of times I have been with people and I have just wanted to stand up and shout 'I can't do this anymore, everyone I am a pansy and I would rather live as a little girl. I am not, never have been nor ever will be a man'.
I guess it's the freedom to dress that is hard. I would dress everyday if I could but I can't and I feel bad because I am complaining about something that in the whole scheme of things is really very low on the scale, but to me of-course it is important..... hard to get a balance.
But the desire to live as a little girl 24/7 is very very strong. I would be so happy as a little girl, as me. I would even be a crossdressing little girl who sometimes dresses as a boy, yeah! that could work lol.
Published On: 11/30/2008 12:07 PM
I have never felt comfortable as an adult, infact even at the age of 37 I do not consider myself an adult. I have very little confidence in adult activities, from driving, work, even socializing. If I'm honest I could've quite happily stayed at primary school.
There are a few adult activities I like, but they are very limited (and I am not talking about sex). Basically as a 'man' and an 'adult' I am a little bit like a fish out of water. Whilst I can articulate as a grown up I am very much like a nine year old. I need to be looked after, cared for and loved, not as a guy, but as the little girl I really am.
My desire, my dream, my longing has always been to live as a little girl 24/7, to erase my fading masculinity and embrace the sweet little nine year old girl I am inside completely. To live free of shame and adult responsibilities, to bathe in the innocence of childhood and know that every night I go to sleep, the dawn will be bring another day of dresses and dollies.
I would imagine many sissies feel the same as me. Little girls trapped in adult bodies, wanting to burst free and live in pink frilly paradise.
I sometimes still can't quite believe it that I am a sissy. Not in the OMG why me kind of way, but more in OMG how lucky am I kind of way. I now have to keep trying to engineer a way to live how I want to live. I know living 24/7 won't be possible and as my dear Mummy Sophie once said, to live that way would isolate me from friends and family, I do know I have to find a way to be a little girl as much as possible.
Published On: 02/03/2008 05:04 PM
I have a new dolly called Ruthie and she is sooooo cute!!