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Username littlegirl_inside About Me
My Interests Contact Info No contact information to display. | Sissy Daryl  Recent Blog Entries Entry Title: Clubs Entry Category: Default Category Published On: 03~01~2009 12:14 PM I have been thinking about starting a couple of clubs, following on from some threads I have started that are close to my heart. The first is the 'fulltime club' which is aimed at sissies who want/need to be little girls fulltime. Mainly aimed at sissies who are little girls around the age of 5-11, but also to include baby girls and toddlers too. After staring the thread about my desire to live 24/7 as a nine year old girl, I was heartned by the response. It seems there are a number of sissies who want to live fulltime as little girls and find it difficult, as I do, to be an 'adult male'. The other club I am thinking of starting is the 'teenie weenie' club. Having a very tiny pee pee is fundamental to who I am, it defines me in many ways and I want to share views etc with other sissies who have tiny pee pees. I have never been humiliated or have ever felt inadequate by being small down below, but that is because I am a sissy and the last thing I want is something so masculine dangling between my legs. I don't have sex, it has never felt natural to me, so having a little shriveled nugget is more a blessing than a curse, something I can tuck away in my nappy and forget about. I love to hear from other sissies about their teenie weenies and what it means to them to be 'small' down below. x x x
Entry Title: Mirror mirror Entry Category: Default Category Published On: 02~14~2009 03:53 PM There is something that seems to dwell deep in the heart of most sissies, a battle between what is true and what is 'normal', a battle that is fought daily and is sometimes won and sometimes lost. I have witnessed the very pain some sissies go through as they wrestle with feelings both natural and alien and it makes me sad. Being a sissy is an amazing gift yet at times can feel like a horrible curse. For those of us that cannot find a balance between our sissy self and our 'male' existence there is a yearning to be more feminine, yet a knowledge, an unwritten rule, that makes us stop and try to conform to the worlds view of what a man must be. For those who are transgendered a different set of problems arise, but for those sissies who are not, two separate beings emerge and fight for dominance. The blur between reality and fantasy is just that - a blur, where each one crosses over into the other, like two colliding worlds in different dimensions. But sooner or later we decide a path, a path that we hope will bring happiness, bring salvation, however hard, however life changing that may be. We cannot escape our true selves, cannot hide, only surrender. We are what we are. I am a pansy, a child, a little girl trapped in a world that feels a hundred times bigger, that has a million eyes looking at me, silently saying 'we know, we know'. I want to escape, I want to be me. I dream when I am asleep, I dream when I am awake, that I will one day live as a little girl, everyday, 24/7 and that I can break free the shackles of adulthood that torment me so. I am not transgenderd, I don't want to change sex, live as a woman, but I need to be a little girl, for that is what I am inside. I am an innocent child, slowly being corrupted by an a adult existence, forever tainted by a society ready to reject me for not conforming. And for those who know the image of the man that stands before them I say this - look into my eyes, look deep into my eyes and you will see the truth, you will see a frightened 9 year old little girl who just wants to be loved. Mirror mirror on the wall Entry Tags: This blog has no tags. Entry Title: The sissy community Entry Category: Default Category Published On: 12~21~2008 11:04 AM It sometimes is so hard leading this double life, putting up the pretence of what a few people deem to be normal. Fighting feelings that do not deserve to be fought because if I do not fight them, or at least subdue them, then I will be left open to the narrow minded fools. But having Sissy Kiss makes life a lot easier and being part of the sissy community is so very important. The amount of times I have been with people and I have just wanted to stand up and shout 'I can't do this anymore, everyone I am a pansy and I would rather live as a little girl. I am not, never have been nor ever will be a man'. I guess it's the freedom to dress that is hard. I would dress everyday if I could but I can't and I feel bad because I am complaining about something that in the whole scheme of things is really very low on the scale, but to me of-course it is important..... hard to get a balance. But the desire to live as a little girl 24/7 is very very strong. I would be so happy as a little girl, as me. I would even be a crossdressing little girl who sometimes dresses as a boy, yeah! that could work lol. Entry Tags: This blog has no tags. Entry Title: The sissy community Entry Category: Default Category Published On: 12~21~2008 11:02 AM It sometimes is so hard leading this double life, putting up the pretence of what a few people deem to be normal. Fighting feelings that do not deserve to be fought because if I do not fight them, or at least subdue them, then I will be left open to the narrow minded fools. But having Sissy Kiss makes life a lot easier and being part of the sissy community is so very important. The amount of times I have been with people and I have just wanted to stand up and shout 'I can't do this anymore, everyone I am a pansy and I would rather live as a little girl. I am not, never have been nor ever will be a man'. I guess it's the freedom to dress that is hard. I would dress everyday if I could but I can't and I feel bad because I am complaining about something that in the whole scheme of things is really very low on the scale, but to me of-course it is important..... hard to get a balance. But the desire to live as a little girl 24/7 is very very strong. I would be so happy as a little girl, as me. I would even be a crossdressing little girl who sometimes dresses as a boy, yeah! that could work lol. Entry Tags: This blog has no tags. Entry Title: The sissy community Entry Category: Default Category Published On: 12~21~2008 11:01 AM It sometimes is so hard leading this double life, putting up the pretence of what a few people deem to be normal. Fighting feelings that do not deserve to be fought because if I do not fight them, or at least subdue them, then I will be left open to the narrow minded fools. But having Sissy Kiss makes life a lot easier and being part of the sissy community is so very important. The amount of times I have been with people and I have just wanted to stand up and shout 'I can't do this anymore, everyone I am a pansy and I would rather live as a little girl. I am not, never have been nor ever will be a man'. I guess it's the freedom to dress that is hard. I would dress everyday if I could but I can't and I feel bad because I am complaining about something that in the whole scheme of things is really very low on the scale, but to me of-course it is important..... hard to get a balance. But the desire to live as a little girl 24/7 is very very strong. I would be so happy as a little girl, as me. I would even be a crossdressing little girl who sometimes dresses as a boy, yeah! that could work lol. Entry Title: The sissy community Entry Category: Default Category Published On: 12~21~2008 10:59 AM It sometimes is so hard leading this double life, putting up the pretence of what a few people deem to be normal. Fighting feelings that do not deserve to be fought because if I do not fight them, or at least subdue them, then I will be left open to the narrow minded fools. But having Sissy Kiss makes life a lot easier and being part of the sissy community is so very important. The amount of times I have been with people and I have just wanted to stand up and shout 'I can't do this anymore, everyone I am a pansy and I would rather live as a little girl. I am not, never have been nor ever will be a man'. I guess it's the freedom to dress that is hard. I would dress everyday if I could but I can't and I feel bad because I am complaining about something that in the whole scheme of things is really very low on the scale, but to me of-course it is important..... hard to get a balance. But the desire to live as a little girl 24/7 is very very strong. I would be so happy as a little girl, as me. I would even be a crossdressing little girl who sometimes dresses as a boy, yeah! that could work lol.
Entry Tags: This blog has no tags. Entry Title: The 24/7 bug Entry Category: Default Category Published On: 11~30~2008 11:07 AM I have never felt comfortable as an adult, infact even at the age of 37 I do not consider myself an adult. I have very little confidence in adult activities, from driving, work, even socializing. If I'm honest I could've quite happily stayed at primary school. There are a few adult activities I like, but they are very limited (and I am not talking about sex). Basically as a 'man' and an 'adult' I am a little bit like a fish out of water. Whilst I can articulate as a grown up I am very much like a nine year old. I need to be looked after, cared for and loved, not as a guy, but as the little girl I really am. I would imagine many sissies feel the same as me. Little girls trapped in adult bodies, wanting to burst free and live in pink frilly paradise. I sometimes still can't quite believe it that I am a sissy. Not in the OMG why me kind of way, but more in OMG how lucky am I kind of way. I now have to keep trying to engineer a way to live how I want to live. I know living 24/7 won't be possible and as my dear Mummy Sophie once said, to live that way would isolate me from friends and family, I do know I have to find a way to be a little girl as much as possible.
Entry Title: The road ahead Entry Category: Default Category Published On: 08~16~2008 09:29 AM Oh my, I haven't added an entry in ages! Well it has been a very up and down period since my last post, but the over riding issue at the moment is my need to dress more often and for longer periods. Being a little girl is such an overwhelming experience and I am finding I want to be a little girl almost all of the time. I am only truly happy as a little girl, as I am sure is the same for most sissies. In the last couple of years I have taken big steps towards living the lifestyle most suited to who I am and I am almost ready to take the next big steps. And these big steps are getting out into the sissy community, going to sissy partys, meeting other sissies and being with people who understand what it is to be a sissy. For me being a sissy is so much more then simply wearing frillies, it goes much much deeper and because of that I have always struggled. From realizing that I was a sissy, I began a path of discovery, learning what made me happy and why. Coming to terms with that I could never be a 'man' was tough but at the same time very liberating, it was then a case of adjusting to reality and that too was tough, still is. But when I am dressed, it all fits into place, the way the skirt of my dress hangs, the way the panties feel, not sexually exciting, but feminizing my tiny bits. The way the ringlets on my wig tickle my shoulder and cheek, the way my socks and shoes feel. How natural it is to wear and use nappies, how natural it is to play with dollies, how natural it is to be a little girl. And along my path of discovery, I have begun to understand how my sissiness has effected me in the real world. I understand why I have always been so timid inside, I understand why I rarely let people get too close and it makes sence why I don't like sex, or rather why sex for me feels un-natural. It is comforting to know that I have a tiny thingy, that my 'manhood' is just a shriveled, little pee pee. It defines who I am and I love that is small, I only wish it was smaller lol. Those futile grasps at masculinity, the mask I wear are just constant reminders of the pansy I have become. My need to be a little girl, that strong burning flame in my soul, drives me on and I know as each day follows the last I will become more and more sissy.
Entry Tags: This blog has no tags. Entry Title: Ruthie Entry Category: Uncategorized Published On: 02~03~2008 04:04 PM I have a new dolly called Ruthie and she is sooooo cute!! Entry Tags: This blog has no tags. Entry Title: Happy 2008 Entry Category: Uncategorized Published On: 01~01~2008 02:09 PM  Well there goes 2007, I'm sure we will all look back on it for many, many different reasons. For me it was a mixed year, a lot of soul searching and making new friends. But it was a year of getting myself out there in the wide world of sissy!! Now that 2008 is here, I hope it can be a platform to a better life, not just for me, but everyone. For me however 2008 has to be the year I get my life on track and if I'm honest it will be a different track. To be able to spend more time as the little girl I am inside, to explore my sissiness even more and to be a happy, contented sissy boy.  To all of you out there, best wishes, health and happiness x x x Entry Tags: This blog has no tags. Forum Info Join Date: 01~10~2007 User Reputation: Total Posts: 606 (0.67 Posts Per Day) Quick Comments 01~24~2009 08:29 AM Wow! Wow! littlegirl inside you have got to be the most expressed sissy i have ever heard of your blogs bring a tear to my eye. everything you have wriiten i wish for myself. although it sounds like you have far more pretty cloths than me. i do have a hellokitty dolly her name is hellokitty she is shy like me dosn't say much she just content to be pretty girl. Hellokitty is my role model lol anyways i just wanted to tank you for letting a me (a not so brave sissy) be your friend love hugs and Kisses janel
10~13~2008 08:28 AM Hi again... Sissy Daryl Just leaving a little comment.. to say LOVE YOU... and hope everything is going ok XXX
Mummy Sophie xxx 09~19~2008 03:36 PM Thank you so much for your blush-inducingly sweet comment. **Hug** I'm very happy to be so welcome here, and glad to be able to help any way that I can. What a pretty page you have here. :D I wish I could think of more things to write in my blog, but inspiration always fails me at the crucial moment ... @]----- 09~03~2008 11:56 AM I really luv your wall paper . would you mind if I used some dear ?? Big hugs and Kisses . 05~30~2008 03:34 AM Dear Sissy Daryl Thank you so much for your lovely comments about me. You are as sweet as Ruthie.. And she's very sweet I love your background, very pretty and girly. Chat soon Love Mummy Sophie xxx  02~04~2008 09:26 PM Quote:
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