As I write this I am wearing a pink nightie with ivory lace. Underneath I have on a lacy white bra and matching panties that have a lace waistband and lace around the leg openings. I have placed a Poise Ultimate maxi pad inside my panties. No I'm not having my period. The pad is for protection against soiling my panties in case of an anticipated "accident"

I have worn lingerie under my male clothing for over 35 years starting with only panties. Now, except when I have a doctor's appointment, I wear all the lingerie that a woman would wear which includes going to work, out shopping, etc. It is fun to speak with a woman on the way to or at work knowing that we may be wearing identical clothing underneath. Today, I wore a bra, panties, pantyhose, pantygirdle, camisole, and pettipants. Sometimes I'll wear a full slip and tuck it into my pettipants. Of course, in my panties I wear the ever present maxi pad. When nature calls, I have to use a stall. I don't remember the last time I used a urinal. In the beginning I never wore a pad and had some embarrasing moments if I came in my panties. Trying to hide a wet spot on my pants was not that easy. Now if I come while at my desk the pad absorbs all my spurts. I've tried pantiliners but prefer the heavier overnight pads. I enjoy feeling the bulky pad between my legs. I think some women are suspecting that I'm wearing a bra but they're not quite sure. They've taken to running a finger down the center of my back I guess to try and feel a bra strap. What I do is wear the front hook style so there's no telltale indentation of bra hooks at the center of my back.

When slipping into my panties, I tuck my penis between my legs and pull up the panties making sure that my penis is nestled comfortably along the length of the pad. Even now I can feel the pad. As I've been writing I've felt a few dribbles going into the pad which is getting a little moist.

Last week at home I ran into a problem when I came. Going to change my pad, I found that I was completely out of pads. What to do? Well, after removing the soiled pad, instead of wearing panties, I decided to put on a diaper and pink plastic panties. Wise decision. I went to the store to buy pads, bought them and started heading home - about five miles. Halfway the urge to pee hit me. I felt a few dribbles go into my diaper. I was almost home when the dam gave way. I flooded my diaper. Lucky for me I had decided to wear more than panties. Once inside I quickly removed the soggy diaper, cleaned myself up and put on a fresh pad and panties.

I'm getting to the point now where I can't hold back much longer. I hope there are others out there who can relate to my feelings. Mmmm -- Uh Oh-h-h-h. Gotta go and change my pad.