Ok this is going to realy hard and sad on me so i try not to cry to much. Anyways you know somewhat about me well theres more i have a son and i heard this song One last kiss from papa roach that made me think of him.   Ok before i was even into diapers and i was 25 i met this girl that i fell in love with and we had this connettion we both had the same birthdays witch is like wow thats a one in a mill chance you know. i thought i found the perfect one then she cheated on with my roomate i found out and i broke up with her and then she came back to me begging me to take her back and in did and about a month she got pregent well during this time we had a few fights here and there tell my son was born his name is gergory he was so adorable i cried durring his birth.                      \n                                                \n                                                   \n                                so about into a year we realy satarted getting into realy nasty fights she hit me and bruse me i could never hit her back thats not me one day we where fighting i ask her " i dont dink do drugs or anyother bad stuff what do you want from me hit you she looked me right into the eyes and said yes hit me i could take it i walked a way. i had video games stand with ps one games realy old ones she took my stand and dumped it on the floor and started walking on my games this was in front of our son too she do this. she go to the bars and live me there with gerg witch i didnt mind at all i didnt have much friends anyway so it was alawys me and gerg then one day she comes home saying that we are though and then i find out she cheated again with a another guy she met at the bar                       Â\n Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â                           \n                                                   \n                          So we brake apart she moves out to life with another guy i watch gerg here and there she just drop by anytime she saw my car in the drive here take him i cant handle him she say so i take him no questtions asked she would do this for about 2 years tell hes was three i was living with frinds off and on moving from place to place tell i move back in with her i had too no choice then she moved out and got married to another guy after that thats when i started seening less and less of gerg now its been 6 months ive only talked to him twice on the phone and now she wount even call me back at all i miss my lille boy so much cries
sorry tears had to see.                       \n                                                 \n                                           Well theres more see not too long i fell in love again last year to a girl that ive known for 10 years she had 2 kids and she proposed to me on her birthday and i was going to be a stepfather i was realy happy then in september things went south she wrote me a emal on myspace saying she dosnt want to be with me anynmore after she got back from the bar "I know a patten happening here right" anyways a few weeks after her best friend told me that was going for another guy thats always went to bar she gose too during karrokee night. Oh thats not have of it she also told me she had a misscarage with my baby thats was it fell down and just balled my eyes out. well after a 3 weeks with her we started to like one another and week later we hooked up and in oct i find out i had incont bladder prob and had to wear diapers "thats all in my first blog "  anyways she bails on me so im alone again then i get a call from ann my ex fince saying she needed to talk to me ok she comes over and tells me that she is pregent and it is my son and it 5 months into it my jaw droped because we broke up in sept and we where togther at july so i was mine then she ays that she giving him up for adouption so now now losing two sons and dont know what to do.

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