I was chating with a friend today and well i met him on line well any way i was telling him how happy i would be if I had been born a female then i said some one up there goofed because my wife is more manly than i could every hope to be the fact is im more on the femminen side with my feelings thrm she dose or any other guy

i never have truly been manly not even in attude .these days im simply closed off because i chose not to embareas them with a sissy son I was already a disapointment to them they told me so.

since my health was bad and then if i ever had a sezuire while out of the house like the store or at a friends house.

they tried to hide me away and did so for two years.

I was plced in a center where the kids had bad health problems I had to live there.

I was and still am a very senstive person more sestive than any guy should be un less your a girl.

once I returned home after the two years .i came back to claim my family but all I found was a brother and sister who hated me because on my brothers part he no longer had his own room my sister who knows I never found out the answer to that one.

I had to keep what ever I was up to quite because simply because my siblings tried to get me in trouble  for what ever they even tried to talk my parents to send me back or put me some whwere else.

even after I came home I was still kept apart from my brother and sister by being sent to a different school all together but a public school noe the less.

this went on for another two years then  ihad to go to the same school  that was the worsdt thing that ever happened to me because i had to be in speical ed and back then  they  kept all the speciel ed kids away from the normal kids and in doing so we were considered unteachable and would quit before they even got to high school.

during my time at this hell hole a boy of 15 or 16 tried to rape me every day for two years I told the teacher time and again but nothing was ever done.

I told the princable and nothing was done so I had to deal with this for 2 years and then one day he succeded and he broke me and for six weeks every day I had to accept the fact i was nine and no one would help me

finely one day he was caught with weed and never returned to school by this time I was numb and made few friends and those were girl only one or two boys and one of those were gay

I was treated as one of them because no guy wanted to be my friend

my life has been a living hell because i had to always do what was good for my family even though they would not help me.

so now here i am  one who has lots of friends but still have a femmien attude.

so here i am and Im glad I have this chance to share with you all