I applaud your honesty first off. My choices are not meant to be universal to the entire AB/DL community and I know that there are certain choices that I make that are entirely my own. So, in an effort to get to know you better, I wanted to post a reply to your blog as well.

I am triple ****ed if you want to follow my reasoning. First off, I am a recovering alcoholic. I don't say this out of any ego boosting or pride, just as a statement of fact. I am very fortunate to be able to not drink each day and my life is so much better for finally deciding to put it down. Next, since I am "different" in societies eye, I have made a decision to follow my own spirituality where it may lead me. If you are interested in truly knowing what manner I follow, just check out my sissy space and I will illuminate anything that you may wonder so long as it isn't an attack of my beliefs. Third, I do feel that I am a woman inside and I hope to transition to that in time. Once again, I do not expect everyone else to feel the same way, but state it as a fact that I accept on a daily basis considering the choices that I have made to be true to myself. Finally, I am an AB/DL in that trying to understand the little girl I am inside (it is something that is hard to explain) I purposefully regress myself in order to understand this identity better.

Now, when I started to realize that I was different, there were times where I wondered if I should continue down this venture. Unfortunately, I feel that I have passed the point where I can turn back now due to my choices. That may or may not be the case, but finding any acceptance whatsoever in this close-minded world is very very hard to accomplish. One thing that I noticed very early on that still disturbs me is the tying of these behaviors to a dominant and submissive relationship. If someone is willing to explore these ideas on their own, I don't think that there is any reason to use punishment for a catalyst to be true to yourself. I have shied away from those people myself and do not wish to participate in degrading or humiliating acts because I get enough of that dealing with life on life's terms alone. I come here to be able to regain my innocence and wonder that I possessed as a child and no pain, frustration, or abuse (even perceived) is not tolerated in my spirituality. I truly believe that we set our own boundaries and what we don't cross, we just don't cross. If something is objectionable to me, I don't associate with it and just let that person be who they want to be.

I am glad to see intelligent and passionate arguments in this community and feel that your ideas are just as valid as mine or anyone elses. Please, I just hope that you participate more to add to the diversity in this community and feel free to speak more about what you like. I hope that even if you do not understand me, that this does bring you a measure of peace and support in determining your own path in this journey of life.

Sincerely,
Stephie
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