I didn't realise until she had left what a force Lavander was on this site ... and sorry to bring that matter up again, but it preys on me every time I log on. :( I continue to come here, but I've been listless and passive, and have felt no motivation to do anything creative but simply to add my meagre comments to ongoing threads. I will probably continue to do so, as I could never think of leaving this wonderful place with all of it's sweet and friendly people, but please forgive me, dears, if I am not a very noticable presence these days. :( The joy I once felt in my sissyness has lapsed, and I can but hope I shall eventually rediscover it. Please, though, don't hesitate to message me at any time, if you feel like talking. I am still here, and mean to stay.