PG 13 my mistress instructs me.....

[CatherineChristine]

that it's time to go public and get some suggestions as to where to go from here. this has been posted at another site as well for maximum exposure.

over the last two years i've been sissified to the point where i wear bra and panties everyday, and sometimes i wear a bra 24/7. in the category of 'be careful what you wish for' i never thought when i started that i'd ever get used to wearing a bra. two weeks in, i was thinking of asking to give it up, but about that time i came to accept it as something i had to wear, just like all girls. now, i can't NOT wear a bra. on the VERY rare occasions i haven't worn one, it just feels TOO weird to be without one, and i need to put one on.

about the same time i had to start 'tucking' myself'. that was wildly uncomfortable at first, but within a month, i realized that 'tucked' was now my 'natural' state and i can now go to the bathroom, sitting of course, with no issues. while i still use a men's room, i have to use a stall. i don't even see a urinal, now, as an option. if i have to go, and all the stalls are occupied, i have to leave and wait. and -i- don't "go to the bathroom". i have to say "i have to go potty." or "i'll BRB, potty." i'm so conditioned to that now, that i can't recall the last time i used the word 'bathroom' or 'toilet' in my speech. it's SO embarrassing in a group of adults to have to say that.

she'd like more ideas on how to sissify my speech more.

in some ways it gets worse. believe it or not, mistress has accomplished all this without any sort of chastity device. between the tucking, and general verbal humiliation, i rarely even see my penis. my crotch is always smooth when i wear slacks, as good as any woman's. she allows me to masturbate, but absolutely NO STROKING like a man, and she's conditioned me to this point with adding 'just one more thing' in my ability to do so. at first it started off as just rubbing my WLT [Worthless Little Thing] so i could make my cummies. but then she added the constraint of having to rub it, push on it, and squeeze it through panties. more and more getting me to masturbate like a woman does. when i was stroking like a man, my orgasms on a scale of 0 - 5 were at least 4 - 5, very consistently. i could 'shoot one off' just like any guy, and i achieved some '5's' when i started rubbing. when she added the panties over time the orgasms dropped to 3's. then she added the constraint i could only do it through a nightgown AND panties. now the 3's became less intense. for the last several months, i've only been allowed to play with myself through a nightgown, panties, and a sanitary napkin. the quality is dropped to steady '1's' and i no longer 'shoot a load'. worse i don't even get hard any more. i can get excited, and still have an orgasm but my WLT at BEST is semihard and i don't 'shoot' any more... i dribble.... into my pad. she has me so conditioned that i can play with myself through panties and nightgown for 30 minutes and only produce at best a few drops of pre-cum, but if she allows me to get a pad, i'll make my 'dribblies' in just a few minutes. i barely recall what it's like to have an erection.

speaking of pads, i have a period every month, and i was forced to actually sign up for an account at 'mymonthlycycles'. i have to have the email alerts, and of course buy my own pads. so far i've logged just over 24 periods.

i've stopped seeing women as sex objects. somewhere along the line, i realized i can look at mountains of porn and not produce a drop of anything. if i see a beautiful woman, i'm more likely to notice her hairstyle or outfit or shoes before i notice how 'hot' she is. i don't look at breasts with anymore interest than another woman would view a pair. when i talk to women [and my own hair is usually up 'by request'] in a floral barrette or some such], and i'm wearing women's jeans, i'll say something like "CUTE shoes!" or comment on their outfit or accessories. i think i automatically friend-zone myself every time.

Mistress is considering transitioning me to diapers, for my 'dribblies', and for added humiliation. she's joked about 'no more worries about bathroom availability', implying 24/7.

so now that i've made this, our first public declaration of my sissification, public as she wants, i need to ask for suggestions on how to proceed in general, or how to intensify any of the above mentioned topics. we'll post again letting you know what she's decided to use, and thank you mommies if you decide to help as well.

[clarisselovelace]

If you think saying potty is embarrassing think about how embarrassing it will be to say aloud "I think I wet my diaper." and have to ask for a change. Honestly I'm stunned that you're two years into it and haven't gotten heavily into diapering yet.

Does she make you speak with a lisp, that can be rather humiliating. I would suggest getting rid of the pads for masturbation and instead be forced to wear the wet pair for the rest of the day should you desire to go #3.

I would also suggest a strict no pants policy when at home. No pants ever, just panties and diapers.

[CatherineChristine]

she took her time to make sure this was what she wanted too. so yeah, while it may have been slow to develop, things HAVE been steadily progressing.

from your post, she liked the lisp idea and she said the diaper idea could be more doable. i'm squirming at the thought though.

can't wait to hear from you again if you have more ideas and anyone if they want to add 'fuel to the fire'.

[LittleDave]

Hmmm, it seems to me that the only logical next step would be diapers 24/7. My wife has me in diapers 24/6.5 and she really likes that control she gets from it.

[sissywanabe2]

I think you are ready for the next step of 24/7 diaper wearing.

Perhaps you need to wear them with someone else controling
when and if a change is necessary. With that in mind start wearing
double or triple diapers (or soaking maxi-pads as necessary) and
a *L*O*C*K*I*N*G* frilly ruffled diaper cover preferable made of
*N*O*I*S*Y* plastic material !!!

Except for public excursions you will wear a pull-over dress or short
skirt that does not cover the hem line of the diaper cover. A padded
B*R*A of sufficient cup must be worn under either. If a skirt is worn
then a "T" shirt; camisole or baby doll top must not touch the waist !

For the footwear mary jane shoes or booties with ankle sox in a pastel
color and frilly anklets.

If you have naughty impulses to play with things that you should not
then thumbless locking mittens may be necessary.

And now that you are sufficiently comfortable then the keys to the mittens
and the locking diaper cover should be locked to your locking collar so
that all times you will have everything necessary for your pleasures.

You have your 24/7 port-a-POTTY and the keys to release you from your
fantasy dream world - "BUT" only if your controling mistress permits
you such freedom by unlocking your collar with the keys !!!

Get nasty and a locking penis gag can be added for your silenced pleasure !

And then there is why did you get to this point in the first place ?
Were you really bad and needed a butt plug or chastitiy device to remind
you of your fantasy to the nth degree ?

But wait there is more - perhaps your controling dominate mistress needs
to invite some of hers (and yours) friends over to show off the 'Pretty Pet"
preferrably in "Sissy Pink" the color of choice !!!

Your mission should you decide to accept it - is to have your mistress read
this post and implement all of the above leaving nothing out !
This post will self-destruct after reading (but only in your minds eye) !

LOL

swb2