Going Through a Rough Patch

[Ethereal]

Hey all,

I am transgendered but most of the time I can get by living in a male body without too much of an issue. However lately I see women and I feel extremely disappointed and frustrated that I will never look like them and that I will always be trapped in a masculine body. Right now I would love nothing more than to be rid of all my body hair, but shaving just isn't cutting it for me anymore and I am starting to get very frustrated. I want electrolysis so everything can be over and done with but I feel like I will never be able to afford it. Worse, I would like to grow my hair out long and gorgeous and to get my ears pierced. Unfortunately for me I work in a very conservative workplace that would tolerate neither of those things. I have some female clothing but right now it doesn't feel like enough. I want to take things further but I am not in a place where I can and it is really starting to cause me grief.

Before I just suppressed all of my transgender issues but now that that cat is out of the bag I can't do that anymore. Now that I am actually crossdressing I can't move back and pretend that my transgender feelings aren't there. I'm hoping that my sadness goes away, and maybe it will, but right now I am in a real funk and I don't know what to do.

Thoughts?

[Sissy Kimi]

Sorry I can't help with society, but if u read my post on electrolysis, I found a home version that u can get for $100. Not the cheapest thing in the world, but it's cheaper than 1 session and for the whole body. Save a dollar a day and you can have the smooth body at least in a couple of weeks. Hope that helps solve one problem.
Sissy kimi

[Prissie]

Hey all,

I am transgendered but most of the time I can get by living in a male body without too much of an issue. However lately I see women and I feel extremely disappointed and frustrated that I will never look like them and that I will always be trapped in a masculine body. Right now I would love nothing more than to be rid of all my body hair, but shaving just isn't cutting it for me anymore and I am starting to get very frustrated. I want electrolysis so everything can be over and done with but I feel like I will never be able to afford it. Worse, I would like to grow my hair out long and gorgeous and to get my ears pierced. Unfortunately for me I work in a very conservative workplace that would tolerate neither of those things. I have some female clothing but right now it doesn't feel like enough. I want to take things further but I am not in a place where I can and it is really starting to cause me grief.

Before I just suppressed all of my transgender issues but now that that cat is out of the bag I can't do that anymore. Now that I am actually crossdressing I can't move back and pretend that my transgender feelings aren't there. I'm hoping that my sadness goes away, and maybe it will, but right now I am in a real funk and I don't know what to do.

Thoughts?

When I want to treat myself to a complete arm, leg and chest dehairing, I use Nair. Not the most pleasant stuff, but it doesn't leave stubble like shaving.

I never got my ears pierced, as the thought of someone sticking a needle through my ears sends shivers down my spine. I'm in the same boat as you are regarding long hair. I got mine cut the Saturday before yesterday, as it was too long and that doesn't fit with the environment where I work.

All of us with feminine feelings are in the same boat as you are. Many of us, myself included, have to enjoy feminine clothing privately. I've gone out dressed a few times, but it draws too much attention to myself. The feelings of wanting to wear panties, skirts, dresses, and so on, never go away.

I recommend that, if nothing else, dehairing your arms and legs with Nair and dress privately, if you can't find opportunities to go out en femme. And too, nobody will notice if you wear panties and pantyhose under en homme clothing. I wear feminine nylon pantliners under my en homme clothes all the time. I wish Vanity Fair would put their full-length pantliners back into production!

As for where to find feminine clothing, go to your local Salvation Army thrift shop. Visit places like Khol's when they have various items for sale. Go to garage sales. Best wishes finding things you like in sizes that fit!

SissyGurlLuv,


Prissie

[joanne_s]

I'd agree. Accepting as I do what you're saying then you need to create some 'girltime' when you can dress up at least in private otherwise to use a colloquialism, you'll go bananas!
You can't take those feelings out of you.
Been there and done it I 'm afraid. If you can take a few photo's of yourself when you do this as it's the 'real you'.
One option for hair might be to look into getting a wig as at least you can take that of for your 'drab' days at work
Hugs Jo.