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hormone therapy
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Born True TS female Sissy
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day:16
OMG I need a new job. Something inside where I don't have to kill myself to barely make it. Air conditioning would be awsome and something that will support me. Short of illegal I'd do almost anything today is a dejavu day same as the days before. No changes.
Love amanda
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day:17
Hi every one. Today OMG blistering in kansas. The only good thing about this heat. I've lost ten lbs in two days. Unbeleiveable. Mostly just dehydration and most will come back but I'm sure a few were fat lbs. Nifty little fact once you grow a fat cell it never dies and never is lost. They just shrink that's why losing weight is harder than putting it on. Its true check the wik. Oh tomorrow I leave to go to work in lawton ok. Ill be staying in an apartment with a bunch of other guys for a week so its time to butch up like that's possible lol I am who I am right. But any way it may be a long week away from my boyfreind. If I hadn't mentioned it he's wonder ful. We met online and text every nite. We've neve met inperson but are still making progress in our relationship. The first day we chated he wanted to come over but I wouldn't let him. I explained I want something that could be longterm and develop over time he was very understanding and supports that. He knows about me and my transition and doesn't seem to have the hangups some guys do and I don't think its a fetish experiment either. I think he wants a true loving relationship as much as I do. Only one draw back to this relationship (ill explain in later installments) so things overall have gone well lately her in kansas
Love you all
Amanda
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day:18
Hi again its amanda here can a day off be any more hectic. I've been on the go since six am. I'm just now getting to laundry. I also had a fight with my brother maybe I'm a bit sensitive but he pissed me off and I let him have a piece of my mind. I wish I lived alone itd be a lot easier. This trip to oklahoma is going to suck. I'm dreading it. I'm in the middle of a hot flash and a little cranky. It'll pass though ill be alright. Physically everything the same no updates
I love you all
Amanda
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day:18.5
Hi ladies and sissies. I know its early but I had to tell yall bout what I packed for my trip. First off I only packed panties. No boy undie I don't wear them any more. Secold my lady speed stick yes it smells so nice and I know the guys can smell the scent and third my pink toothbrush. Also I have have my premarin hormone pills packed. If any one looks in my bag I'm busted big. I love secrets lol.
Love to my sisters and sissies
Amanda
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day:19
Well here we are in lawton ok just outsíde ft sill stayíng ín a nasty roach hotel. I'm getting reddy for my shower I plan on wearing panties a tight a cut t shirt and my really tight short stretchy bike shorts they show off my smooth crotch well now the guys will see how fem down below I am. There watchíng football now while I compose this. Its always exhilerating to walk such a fine line between masculine and fem and ill deffinately be on the fem side tonight. Hope they don't stare tomuch lol.
Love all you ladies and sissies
Amanda
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day:20
Hi all still in oklahoma and want to be home. Al is well but its hard keeping my fem side all bottled up short entry tonight cause its late love you all
Amanda
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Born True TS female Sissy
HOLD on hon. soon enough you`l coming home again dear AND with more cash in your pocket 
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day:21
OMG! Is it me ik think not every resturaunt down here is slow I sat at sonic for an hour waiting on two burgers and they couldn't get the order right. Finally I just left. Then mcdonalds took forty min and the first time I was here taco bell one hour and fifteen min for tacos my goodness and the sit downs you have to wait an hour for a table maybe I'm just being bitchy. Ok enough on this hole in the wall town. Works going ok. Should be headed home tuesday. I'm a little self concious of my appearance my nipples are poking through my teeshirts. I feel like every one is looking at me. I can't wait to go fulltime but it will be a while till everything is in place. When I get home ill check my figure and send out my new measurements. I'm sure my butts bigger all my pants are tight as hell. I need to go. Shopping and buy some pants that fit size nines. I like the stretch denim its comphy. Bye girls
Love ya all
Amanda
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day:22
Hi all! The day is finally over. I just got out of a hot bubble bath my skin feels sooo soft. Just over three weeks and I'm still going strong. One of the guys at work teases me about being like a woman. Cause I spend a long time primping in the bathroom. Also I've been pretty bitchy lately if he only knew ! He sees it as a putdown but I see it as a compliment lol. Its a long road ahead but I'm settling into the journey nicely. I have another doctors appointment next weekend to chech that I'm responding well. I don't think I could feel any better about myself. I am getting tired of all the sports on tv the other guys watch don't they like disney lol. Love you all
Amanda
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day:23
Hi again its amanda. Still in oklahoma. Hope to be home tomorrow its pretty late so short entry tonight
Bye love you all
Amanda
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Hey, it's me! Just telling you again, I'm so happy for you!
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day:24
Hi ladies and sissies. Well I made it home. The first thing I did was change to a diapy I'm wet now as I type this. The secolnd thing was put a bra on my girls were uncaged for way to long lol they feel so much better now. Tomorrow I'm taking measurements to check any changes. I'm so happy to be home!
Love you all
Amanda
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day:25
Mmmmmaa! Big kiss to you all! Its been three and a half weeks now and here are my updated measurements hips-38 waist-34 chest-39. Weight down five lbs last time I was 40-35-40. So there is some progress. Its a slow road I'm on but ill get there sooner or later thou sooner is better lol. I'm still on five mg per day of premarin. Ill send out new measurements in about two weeks. If there are any other girls on hormones or want to be e mail me I'd love to chat and make new freinds.
Love all
Amanda
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hey baby,
I admire you so much... I am keeping a journal of my changes as well, but I don't have the guts to put them up here.
Anyway, I was wondering if you're still looking for some sort of work that could get you away from those jerks? If you like to write at your computer, then I might have a job that you'd really like, and could free up your time a little for you to be yourself more often. It's terribly unhealthy to try and live two lives...
I was completely split until about eighteen months ago I talked to my wife about it. She freaked at first, then was cool, and then freaked again. Now, she is not only accepting of the fact that I enjoy dressing up, but she's supportive. The difference in my personality and confidence is incredible, and let's face it, confidence is one thing you can never have enough of.
Luvs,
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day:26
Hi yall. If I wanted to I could have a huge lawsuit against the local pharmacy. I get my hormone script filled there. It also just so happens my mother gets her scrips there also (small town). Welltoday she shows up at work with my pills and asks what are these. I sort of freek and shutdown. The pharmacy gave my script to my mom to give to me. I was floored. What ever happened to confidentiality and so on I could probably get enough to pay for my surgery and then some but I'm me I do unto others as I would have done to me. They were only trying to make it convenient for me since she was already there. So I forgive the tresspass and forget. But now my secret is out and I have to deal with that bag of worms earlier than I wanted. Oh well that's the life of a trans woman.
Love all ya
Amanda
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Born True TS female Sissy
Oh SNAP !!!!!!!!!!!! 
well hon as you sed you're self better to get it over with then having to live too life`s
i JUST pray that your mom etc.... will be supportive rather then act up
ALWAYS remember what i toled you tho dear ALWAYS keep the door open if they whant in again after a while of digesting things dear
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My parents don't want me to transition, they'd rather not have me than have a beautiful and adorable daughter.  But I'm gonna, as soon as I get my own place. Hopefully your mommy won't do what mine did.
I wish you well!
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Sorry to hear that Baby. Sometimes it's better for things to come out when you feel they're time has come, but sometimes you can use little accidents like this to actually break the ice and open up a dialog for your explanations. I really hope things work out okay with this, because I know first hand that things will sometimes get much, much, MUCH worse before you begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Luvs,
Dawn
P.S. what updates do you have about taking your hormones?
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WOW, that's an... well I'm not sure how to put it. But what new outlook did they put on your ordeal? I would think that they'd either prescribe that you take gender counseling, or try and discourage it. What happened?
I'm glad you seem better now,
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Oh yes, they told me to take things in baby steps (funny, cause I'm a baby girl at heart!) and find a way to move out on my own and then start hormones, and not to rush things. They also went on about how much happier I'd be if I had my own place, and I was prescribed Prozac. Since then, I've switched to Lexapro and now I'm on Celexa. Antidepressants are win, but estrogen is better!
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day:26.5
Hi all. Sorry I missed you ladies last night I was out fishing with my uncle last night. OMG yes I love fishing what I enjoy the most isthe quiet serenity when on the lake. It gives me time to think.
Physical changes I notice right now is slow body hair growth its still there but grows half as fast the next are my breasts they seem bouncy and bigger
Kisses amanda
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Yay for bigger boobs! I remember when mine grew out. omg, mine were really itchy! Are yours itchy?
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day:27
Hi yall today was not a good day. Last night the news was broke to me about my eight year old cousin. That in two to three years hell be blind. I feel so bad for him. Surgery can fix the problem but being dirt floor poor we have no insurace and no money. If I had the money for my surgery saved I'd gladly give it to him because children come first to all other needs. Secolnd my moms car caught fire and burned to the ground it was paid for so my parents only had liabilaty insurance on it. And its their only car and no money to buy another. I don't know what well do now. Its just one of those days that wrench your heart. You forget your needs and just do what you can. So if you are of the praying kind may I ask that you remember my family in teir time of need as I remember each and all you in my prayers.
Bless you all
Amanda
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is NOT advisable dear. 
) and I was taking 4mg/day of estrogen (EstroFem brand) and 100mg/day spiro. Then last year I was taking spiro up until I decided the world wasn't worth living in anymore and attempted suicide by taking the rest of the bottle (I had only been on it two weeks prior so I ate nearly 80 pills of the stuff that night 
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